Everything's better when shared...

I have a hard time letting people in. I'm trying to change that. I want to put myself 'out there'. I want to live unafraid and out of hiding, free from my debilitating fear of not being enough. But it's not easy for me; it never has been. I don't share my feelings, my dreams or even my hurts with anyone.

Today... I share!

Below are 20 random facts about who I am, good and bad. I want to know YOU, too... so don't forget to leave me a fact or two or more about yourself in the comments!

(1) I don't like stainless steel appliances... at all.

(2) I consciously never let anyone get close to me because of my awful abandonment fears and I still have nights when I  wake up in sweating/screaming nightmares because of those same fears.

(3) I have crushes that last for years.

(4) I have never felt that 'connection' of heartstrings that people talk about but I am okay with that.

(5) Social Anxiety... it sucks... but I have it and I, unfortunately, allow it to keep me, for the most part, hidden.

(6) I like salt. I like salt, a lot; so much so, in fact, that sometimes I wish I were a deer so people wouldn't look at me funny if I were to carry around a salt-lick.

(7) I love green ink pens. For some reason I feel better sharing my imagination with paper if the sharing is done in green ink.

(8) I really want to live in a Hallmark Christmas movie but I want to go through the Stargate to get there.

(9) I am beyond-brutally allergic to cats and I feel very guilty about this fact because I feel I am hurting their feelings in my avoidance of them when I actually would love to be able to snuggle them.

(10) I hate cooking. I do it because it's necessary and I'm not terrible at it but I just absolutely despise doing it.

(11) I am terrified of swimming in lakes and rivers but I spend hours and hours, day after day, swimming in the ocean on rare occasions I am blessed with the opportunity.

(12) I don't like the taste of wine and I don't want to keep trying it to see if I will eventually get to a point where like it.

(13) I really LOVE Dill Pickle Dip but... it was better when in came in the scalloped tins.

(14) I do not like fish or seafood of any kind.

(15) The only time I feel completely centered is when I sit down with my guitar; I don't have to worry about tripping over my words or making a mistake, I just listen to the music as it comes.

(16) My feelings are extremely easily hurt and even an unintentional hurtful tone can take me years to overcome.

(17) Even though I have a home I don't ever actually feel 'at home' and I don't like the feel of walking on egg shells all of the time.

(18) I am still upset that Squirrel Peanut Butter was re-branded as Skippy Peanut Butter and that the peanut on top was discontinued along with the name change.

(19) I love Campbell's Cream of Mushroom Soup... but all of the mushrooms have to be strained out because I hate the feel of mushrooms.

(20) I love making and decorating cut-out cookies for any and all occasions; I guess I consider this crafting rather than cooking!